28 Feb 2012

WHEN YOUR BEST ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH


                                                      

I HAVE TRIED MY BEST, I AM TIRED!!!. I DON'T GIVE UP EASILY BUT SOMEHOW I WOULD JUST HAVE TO SETTLE FOR AVERAGE.

 I am in the Library reading.I just finished taking an online test. Crazy as it may be, I fell short of the pass mark by 2%. I don't understand the algorithm for the score processing, but I know I am about running mad ATM(at the moment). Yep, I have been tensed up all week pending my schedule for writing this test and I fail to make the pass mark. Someone say "VEE, GIVE YOURSELF A HUG, THANK GOD AND SMILE ". I know you are about saying that, thanks for the encouragement, but somehow I hate listening to those words, they sound like consolation prizes. I am beginning to think my "CHI" isn't being fair with me. You are about going "ooohhh, ahhhh, but believing in "CHI" is a thing of the past, isn't it? ", It might be, but I choose to believe in what I want.
I am tired of trying so hard and falling withing the average range. I am tired of ridding myself of things I love and falling below expectation. I am just tired of TRYING.  And to say my efforts come to nothing, leaves me  so weak. I am confused. So I just packed my stuff from the library (stuff I am reading isn't entering.), left the test center, and took a walk back to my room .
Life is not all about trying so hard all the time. I am just going to live as it comes to me.

XOXO
BE GOOD ANYWHERE.
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